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i'm lindsey. yeah hi

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me on my birthday this past weekend. It was a good time and I wish I could go back

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oh and I’ll probably be on here a lot more lol……..

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I’m going through a break up right now and I don’t know who to talk to or what to do. All I want is to talk to him. He has been my best friend for so long and he’s the only one I want to go to when I’m sad. When I’m happy, mad, any emotion — he’s the first one I want to talk to about anything I’m feeling. This is so hard because he’s the only one who understands how I feel right now. It’s even harder because I was the one who did the breaking up.. I love him, so much, but I know we are not good together. Some events also led up to it, and things went very bad.. which is why I just know we can’t do this anymore. It hurts so much. It’s a big wake up call, and I will never stop loving him despite everything that has happened.. but I need to put me first and care for myself. Which I have never been great at doing, but I need to try this time around. I can’t throw myself into anyone else’s arms. I need to do this on my own.

But it’s still so hard. He’s the only one I want to be around right now. I can’t stand to be alone but don’t feel like talking to anyone else when they’re around. I just want him. This is so hard. I need to do this for myself. I hope he will understand and maybe we can remain friends. I’d love that. He has been my best friend, my person, my number one.. I can’t imagine him just not being in my life anymore. But we just both need time.

I don’t know. I’m just venting. I don’t know who else to talk to. My parents are trying to get me to talk but I can’t. My friends are trying to get me to go out but I don’t want to. I just don’t know what to do. I don’t have the motivation for anything. How do I move forward after this? Where can I find the strength? Why am I weak. Why can’t I be okay. It’s only been two days. But when will this feeling pass, I want it gone, I want to be okay. I’m just hurting so much. I know I’ll be okay with time. But I’ve never had that kind of patience… I just want to skip to the part where I’m able to smile again. Where I don’t feel like dying. Where I can lay in bed without crying because he’s not there next to me. I just want this all to pass. It’s a nightmare that I wasn’t ready to live through.

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